oneurwaitingfor's Journals on Buzznet http://oneurwaitingfor.buzznet.com/user/journal/ en-us <![CDATA[...]]> http://oneurwaitingfor.buzznet.com/user/journal/3530381/ Buzznet oneurwaitingfor 2008-12-21T15:04:17Z <![CDATA[Is it normal to feel this apathetic?]]> http://oneurwaitingfor.buzznet.com/user/journal/1085011/
It's funny how quick and is easy it is to come down from a 'high'.

Peak and Valleys. The story of my life in three words.

Split personality.

"We're at war"
"Why do we like to hurt so much?"

Well, I guess "that's what you get when you let your heart win".

He has a way with words, well, I want a way with life.]]> Buzznet oneurwaitingfor 2007-10-01T23:56:07Z <![CDATA[Chris' Speaking 9/24/07]]> http://oneurwaitingfor.buzznet.com/user/journal/1082461/

When I met Chris, I felt like I had finally met someone who understood me and the feeling was overwhelming. Sure, some people understand what make me tick, but I just felt that Chris not only understood me, but understood the fact that I feel different.

That sounds odd. Let me explain. If you know me (even a little) you know certain things about me. You know certain things about how I view the world. But my insecurities, the fact that I feel like I never belong, anywhere, most of you can't get that about me. I'm not saying you never feel like you don't belong, everyone does. But there is something else that I can't put my finger on, that I can't express. Maybe it's my longing for something more, or maybe it's my acceptance and delight at feeling like an outsider contrasted with my almost equal loathing and hate of it.
Whatever it may be, I feel that Chris just got it.

Ah, that sounds so sappy.

Anyway, here are some of my highlights of the night:

(+) The fact that Bethany came with me to something that was not at all her scene.
(+) Successfully driving all the way to the city, without getting (too) lost and confused.
(+) Successfully pulling out of a parallel parking spot.
(+) Talking to Chris afterwards about our mutual confusion of the Spanish language, despite our heritages.
(+) Hugging Chris.
(+) Twice.
(+) The delicious tea at the Blue House
(+) This quote: "You never see Ock's and MCRmy running marathons."]]> author baltimore chris gutierrez hey! chris maryland Buzznet oneurwaitingfor 2007-10-01T14:29:00Z <![CDATA[Fairgreen CD Release show]]> http://oneurwaitingfor.buzznet.com/user/journal/965671/ Everyone always knows of a band that will "make it big". How many times have you heard, " My friend's friend is in a band… and they're awesome, blah, blah, blah... When my friend told me about her friend's band, I told her I'd give them a listen, half-expecting them to be awful (my friend is too nice, she would never say someone was untalented, even if they were), but I was pleasantly surprised. The songs on their myspace were really good. When she I invited me to their cd release show, I was a bit more skeptical. It's one thing to sound good recorded, but sounding good live is a completely different story.  I've been disappointed by so many bands that sound talented on their cd/myspace, and can't even replicate their sound onstage. This was not at all the case with Fairgreen.

By the time I went to their cd release show, I was fairly familiar with some of Fairgreen's songs and was hoping they could decently play 'Between You and Me' (my favorite song off their myspace). And let me tell you, I was blown away with this band's live performance. A lot of times, when you see a band live, a lot of instruments seem forgotten, almost like their songwriter only takes a couple of instruments into account. I noticed every single instrument at that show. Every member of that band has talent, and you can tell they are all able to bring something to the table come songwriting time. Their vocals were stronger than many bands I've seen, and their instrumentation was a lot tighter than many sets from signed bands I've had to endure. I was even able to enjoy the songs I had never heard before. I would have to say the highlight of my night, though, was their cover of UnderOath's 'Some Will Seek Forgiveness, Other's Escape'. If you can satisfactorily cover UnderOath, you're alright in my book.

After, the show, I bought their new cd, (it was a cd release show, after all), but it was not without hesitation. I can't tell you the amount of times I've bought a cd after an exciting live show, and was quite disappointed with the album, but I should not have doubted Fairgreen. I haven't been able to stop listening to this cd.. It's really well done, and I highly recommend it. (After hearing the first 45 seconds of the first song, I was hooked and knew I would love it.)

So, my suggestion to you is to go and see Fairgreen live and buy their cd. Or you could at least check out their myspace. Trust me, you won't be disappointed.

]]> cd cd release show concert faigreen music myspace pop punk review show talent Buzznet oneurwaitingfor 2007-09-07T21:24:50Z <![CDATA[I feel]]> http://oneurwaitingfor.buzznet.com/user/journal/909991/
I already find myself falling into old patterns and I need help.

Maybe this is dumb to type on facebook, but nevertheless I feel compelled to do so.

I miss the Clash! It was amazing to always be with Christians. The environment made it easy to follow Christ.Temptations were not so apparent. Unfortunately, I can't isolate myself like that (when I isolate myself, that's always a bad sign by the way). But what I mean is, I hate being "in the world, but not of the world". It gets confusing.

Please pray for me, because obviously this was not at all coherent (this may have something to do with the fact that I haven't been sleeping... ha ha ha).]]> Buzznet oneurwaitingfor 2007-08-27T18:16:00Z <![CDATA[Not sleeping is like a high]]> http://oneurwaitingfor.buzznet.com/user/journal/481191/
Back to responsibility soon.

I feel like I've found out what's been wrong with me, but it's too late. I'm already over it.

Ijustwanttodosomething.

I love Starbucks Green Tea. It is my new obsession.

Which should I get for my birthday this or this or this?


"I hope I am a boomerang on its way back, not some stone sinking in the sea."


]]> birthday clandestine green tea high lack of sleep responsibility sleep starbucks Buzznet oneurwaitingfor 2007-06-26T01:33:00Z <![CDATA[oh, no, she's at it again...]]> http://oneurwaitingfor.buzznet.com/user/journal/342591/ Most everyone I know is aware of my Fall Out Boy obsession, si?

Well, last night I finally saw them again. I enjoyed the Honda Civic Tour sooo much better than the Friends or Enemies tour.

Because I was blessed with early entry, I was in the pit at the beginning of the show. Well, I couldn't take it, people were getting nasty and I was wet (because it was raining, while I was in line, like, there was seriously rain in my shoes), so I went and saved seats. My friend had a hard time getting in because they were out of bracelets, but she convinced some old guy to give her his bracelet, because he probably didn't want to be any closer.

The girl behind me kept borrowing my pit bracelet (I had no desire to see Cobra Starship...),but I REALLY wanted to be in there for Fall Out Boy. When I checked out the pit, it looked too crowded (it's super small), and I didn't know if I wanted to go, but the girl behind me took me into the pit and looked out for me. I thought that was really sweet of her.

I was just amazed at God's grace at that concert. As I've been telling some of you, music tends to be an idol in my life, but despite my sinfulness in that, God was still kind. He allowed my parents the peace of mind to let me drive myself (on 95!), he let me win early entry, and he sent someone to help me out in the pit.

I was sooo close, it was amazing. I'm never able to put into words the "high" a concert gives me. I love Fall Out Boy, and they did some of my favorite songs (Carpal Tunnel blew my freaking mind, and when they did One and Only, I thought I was going to explode). Patrick is an amazing vocalist and musician, he had all these guitar solos right up front (major swoon). Joe is just plain crazy, it was awesome, he always gets the crowd going (at one point I was so close I could hear him telling everyone to sing louder!). Pete, was, well, he looks way better in person, let me say that, and he was very talkative last night (compared to last time)... it's his birthday today, by the way. And oh my gosh, Andy was insane! He had this drum solo, up front, it was incredible, seriously, he is the best musician out of all of them. I can't even describe how awesome it was.

Overall, this was one of the best concerts I've been to, and when Pete was talking about their next tour,(with Gym Class Heroes!) I was like, "I am sooo there"!
]]> +44 cobra starship fall out boy hct honda civic tour june 4 june 4 2007 md merriweather post pavilion music paul wall the academy is... Buzznet oneurwaitingfor 2007-06-05T07:46:00Z <![CDATA[How Pathetic]]> http://oneurwaitingfor.buzznet.com/user/journal/276961/
I haven't posted a new real note in awhile. (You were probably relieved). I've just been posting song lyrics that I did not write. It's funny though, because sometimes I feel that I can't express what I am feeling, but these songs seem to do it perfectly. I really like it actually. I wish I could find many more songs and albums that I can personally relate to.

Isn't it amazing what music can do? How it can express how you're feeling? How it can give you something in common with people (like ock's)? How it defines generations? How it defines how we view people (you like that band? ew...).

Can you imagine what the world would be like if we lost this great gift? I would probably never sleep or drive or do homework. Movies would lose their luster; what would you say before someone blew out their candles?

I don't want to imagine that anymore...

Now, I'd like to ask you a question? Do you like to listen to bad music? I mean none of us will answer jump up and down and answer "yes", but do you ever want to listen to something despite the fact that you know it sucks? Do you ever listen to something because it sucks? Or do you ever feel yourself instinctively drawn to that one band that completely contradicts all your musical tastes?

I'm curious, because I know I listen to some bands despite the fact that I know they suck.

Thoughts?]]> Buzznet oneurwaitingfor 2007-05-24T23:25:00Z <![CDATA[Basically]]> http://oneurwaitingfor.buzznet.com/user/journal/254651/ A road down which I swore I'd never go
And here I sit, thinking of God knows what
Afraid to admit I might self-destruct


There's more to living than being alive


My world is falling apart.
I was a fool, I never saw it coming.
My life is like a card house.
A delicate construction
With no regard for the wind...


I thought I had everything under control.
I couldn't have been more wrong.
I thought I held my world in my hands.
Until it broke and I awoke from this foolish dream.

]]> anberlin destruction and reform dismantle and repair god life lyrics my heart relient k this providence Buzznet oneurwaitingfor 2007-05-21T08:04:00Z <![CDATA[Well Versed in the Ways of the World]]> http://oneurwaitingfor.buzznet.com/user/journal/243441/ Is there a hurting heart behind that smile?
A world of hurting hearts?
A few broken generations?

"It's not safe, stay away from- follow me's are everywhere
In a world that lacks commitment you very quickly learn
to justify your actions, so<b> follow the truth</b>"

But it seems like they've got it <b>all </b>and all I have is <b>you</b>
They've got it all I have is you
Wait , how can I entertain these thoughts of life without you?
I'm losing my mind and with that the<b> love of my life</b>

I step out my door to a beautiful day and a world full of hate
But I still hold on to a hope for you and me
Yeah, I still I hold on to this foolish hope

Take it or leave it, it's only a matter of life or death
Take it or leave it, it's only a matter of life or death]]> god lyrics my heart this providence Buzznet oneurwaitingfor 2007-05-19T06:58:03Z