oneurwaitingfor

How the fuck can you take away the one thing that helps... But then again it doesn't. Lower and lower I sink into the mire of my own stupidity and selfishness. I'm slowly killing myself with my love of this mascochistic pleasure... Fuck this. Where is my promised 'more'? Where the fuck did it go? I HATE ALL OF THIS... Nothing is ok. My discombulated thoughts confuse even me. Fuck fuck fuck. I don't want to be you. Not even a little. The connection is gone and I thank God everyday for that release!!